When the Journey is a Long, Uphill March
When Audre and I first agreed to participate in this thing called “The Journey,” I was admittedly reluctant to commit to something that would expose my weaknesses…especially on a weekly basis! (If you’re not familiar with “The Journey,” take a listen to Episode 2).
I’m not exactly sure if there was a single event, but I can trace my challenges with weight and body image back to the First Grade. The more I reflect on that simple fact, the more profound it becomes. Think about this: I have lived with an identity of shame since the age of seven, and its grip has often dictated my self-worth, my ability to accept being loved, and has often led to self-isolation and depression.
There is an ancient writing that talks about “taking every thought captive,” so that it does not negatively infect your thinking, and while this is true, it is often easier said than done. As I’m learning, the mental and emotional process of overcoming so many years of negative thought patterns is a long and arduous one. Indeed, one’s journey (whether it’s overcoming weight issues, or other inadequacies or life challenges) all-too-often mirrors the path of Sam and Frodo stumbling toward Mordor in Tolkien’s Lord of the Rings. And, just like their journey, mine (and yours!) requires a shared principle: putting one foot in front of the other, and continuing onward, even when it is daunting to do so.